Growing Up is Hard to Do

“I think that the power is the principle. The principle of moving forward, as though you have the confidence to move forward, eventually gives you confidence when you look back and see what you’ve done.”

– Robert Downey Jr.

Growing up is hard to do. I love this quote from Robert Downey Jr. because I think it encompasses the feelings I have about graduating. It's very close to that one saying "fake it 'till you make it". I think that right now I feel very under-prepared to be unleashed onto the workforce. I'm sure I'd feel this way even if I got the full senior year and got to walk the stage and did everything by the book.

From here on out I must rely on my own two feet, the steadiness of my steps, the confidence of my walk. I must create my own path, whether or not it leads in the right direction. I must live with my consequences, my losses, my fails. I must live with my victories, my gains, my wins.

Growing up from college means leaving behind something I've never been without. I am exiting the world of academia for the first time to explore a new one. I will now have to traverse a plain, the likes of which I've never seen. I will have to fall, to rise, to fail, and to succeed. Every choice from here is all my own.

Sometime's that next step is scary. It's a leap of faith, a show of trust to our past education. We must have enough confidence in our preparation to take the first step towards an unknowing future. I am scared, afraid of messing up, of being "not enough". I do not know what I don't know, what I need to learn. I must adapt, learn as I go, embrace the changes like a beach embraces the tides, forever changing and growing and learning.

My graduation is the end of my first book in life. As this book ends, I must start writing a new one. The next book is not yet written, as I create new memories, new adventures fill it's pages. My life after graduation is sure to be a thriller, a romance, a science fiction, action packed, novella containing wild goals and wilder dreams. This book is not yet written, but each step I take from here on out puts words on the pages and memories in my heart.

Growing up is hard to do, but a small step of faith can lead to leaps and bounds of trust. My life is now my own and I'm finally ready to take it.

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