A few weeks ago a met someone. They swung into my life and changed my entire world. We met as all great love stories do... on an app (lol). I can't believe how much my world view has shifted already in such a short amount of time. Suddenly, I'm romantic and interesting and someone is somehow as into me as I am into them.
I met someone and she's a girl. She gives me butterflies and makes me want to smile at the thought of her. I can already start to see a future where she's in it and I want so badly for it to be mine. She makes me want to be myself, in the best possible way. I'm feeling things I've never felt before and it's because of her.
Before this time in my life, I just wasn't mentally or emotionally ready for a relationship. With my low sexual interest I figured liking boys would come with time and eventually I would meet the right one and that would be that. And then I met her and everything fell into place. I feel like my whole life I was just bottled up so she could take off the cap. I want to hold her hand and kiss her lips and be around her all the time.
I'm on the fast-track now, falling faster and faster every time we meet, every time we text. Tonight she kissed me (my first!) and I found out that, kissing, it ain't as bad as I thought. I'm getting sappy just thinking about it and I can't stop smiling. There's this amazing feeling to know that someone you really like likes you back just as much.
I almost didn't ask her to be with me. I almost chickened out. I'm glad I didn't. I would have regretted this night for the rest of my life. I'm slowly starting to realize that, sometimes, that leap of faith, that plunge into the dark, can lead to something magical and special and precious. I've been looking for 23 years for my person in a sea of people and I think they could be her. ❤